Worst week ever

I've never said so many cuss words or lost as much sleep as I have in so long. Cruz had an eye infection and an ear infection. That went away. Now he has an upper respitory infection. He has slept terrible and won't let me sit down when I am trying to put him to sleep. He had hit me and tried very hard to pull my hair. I hate that he's in pain but he is testing my every sense of the world. I am trying to stay positive and up best but on the days I am with him all day long I am extremely worn out, tired, exhausted (emotionally and mentally). Currently I am down stairs listening to him cry. Cry because he's tired. Cry because I'm not in the room. I can't hold him for 1 1/2 hours while standing up so he can sleep. I don't know what to do. This cold,  this leap, 17 months old is the hardest time that I can remember in a long time. 

Full time starting now :(

Cruz and I start our fulltime week tomorrow. Sad :(. Here's some fun pics over the weekend as we celebrated July 4th  

First trip away

I'm currently sitting at LAX airport after a hellacious trip thus far. I had a 7 am flight this morning. Due to super long lines I missed in. It's 4:40 pst now. I didn't imagine that being away from Cruz would be this hard. I keep watching videos. I FaceTime'd him earlier. Brian said he cried after we hung up. Although he's not going to remember me being away in the grand scheme of things I will. Dada is doing great. Last night he wrote out an SOP (standard operating procedure) of Cruz. He's been logging in it too. I'm very proud of him!  

 

June

What a blur. Tahoe, Dallas, Rochester, Dallas again. Also working, cleaning, raising a baby, and some how finding time to watch The Bachelorette and wash the hair. I (we) are exhausted. It's been 21 days since last Breastfeeding. My boobs are forever changed. No longer DD's or perky. My grandfather passed away on Father's Day. Cruz and I went to Rochester for the funeral. That was a chore however so glad we could go and see (meet) family. Right now I'm rocking Cruz to sleep. Since he no longer breastfeeds he now sleeps 11 to 12 hours straight!  He is also trying to eat us out of house and home. I'm always preparing him a new snack. Favorite now is blueberries. 

Stats: 26 lbs

Loves chicken nuggets, blueberries, Oreos, and yogurt

Climbs all over everything

High fives, dances and shakes hand

Now hugging and grabbing to squeeze (love)

He's a true blessing to our family. I love getting him in the morning. He's always happy!  Xo

Cruz decided he was done

Cruz decided he was done with Breastfeeding on 6/5/2014. I didn't realize that this connection with my baby would end this day. I am sad. I went on vacation for a friends wedding and was away from him for 3 days. When I returned yesterday he didn't want it. I offered him some this morning, nap time and finally at bed. He rejected it all three times. Breastfeeding has been hard. It hurt at first. It was draining when I first started. It consumed my days and nights when he was a newborn. It provided comfort most recently. Tonight I rocked him for a bit and he rest his head on my chest. I am truly fortunate to have been able to breastfeed for 15 1/2 months. I am happy that Cruz decided for himself however am a little sad too. 

First week at daycare/ new job.

Not terrible. Missed Cruz madly!  He got croup midweek and has been trying to get well. It's 10 am on Sat and I'm putting him down for a nap already. Poor lil baby!  

My work screensaver :) 

Melt my heart 5/23/14

It's 5:15 am. I have been up for about an hour coughing. Cruz woke up about 15 min ago. I went into his room and nursed him for about 10 min then he cuddled up and fell asleep on my chest. Pure bliss for mama. I love this baby so much!