18 months already

Motherhood tests me every day. Some moments I'm peaceful while others I can't wait to have a drink or pass him off to someone else. Toddlerhood is another animal. I couldn't wait for Cruz to do all this stuff but now can't believe how fast that went. Although I still consider Cruz my little baby I am reminded he isn't when a true little baby is around. At this moment my toddler is cuddling with me as I rock him to sleep. My house is a mess. I have food stuck in the carpet. I have wet clothes in the wash. I have grey hairs shining through. I am not as "fit" as I used to be because there aren't enough hours in the day. These complaints or gripes are truly a moment in time. I could probably have more time if I didn't rock Cruz to sleep however I love it just as much as him.  Happy half birthday my little baby! 

 

The end if the weekend 8/17/14

Cruz finished his final wonder week and I believe is going through a big growth spurt. He ate more for dinner than I did!  We went to the Y to go swimming Saturday and Sunday. Tomorrow I have work and he has school. Here are some fun shots from the weekend. 

Worst week ever

I've never said so many cuss words or lost as much sleep as I have in so long. Cruz had an eye infection and an ear infection. That went away. Now he has an upper respitory infection. He has slept terrible and won't let me sit down when I am trying to put him to sleep. He had hit me and tried very hard to pull my hair. I hate that he's in pain but he is testing my every sense of the world. I am trying to stay positive and up best but on the days I am with him all day long I am extremely worn out, tired, exhausted (emotionally and mentally). Currently I am down stairs listening to him cry. Cry because he's tired. Cry because I'm not in the room. I can't hold him for 1 1/2 hours while standing up so he can sleep. I don't know what to do. This cold,  this leap, 17 months old is the hardest time that I can remember in a long time.